From the diary of a tired mom...
I am tired. I am so tired that I hurt. I am the kind of tired that 8 hours or even 12 hours of sleep won’t fix. Have you ever felt that before? It’s feeling so tired but there is no end in sight so it makes you feel more exhausted than you already feel. I know I am not alone in feeling this way, but for some reason that doesn’t make me feel any better either.
What I do appreciate though are the grandmas that come up to me and my 5 kids and tell me that it is going to be okay. Maybe it’s the way they look at me - the same way a marathon runner who has completed the Boston Marathon would look at the runner that is still on their first mile. The look that says, “there is an end somewhere up ahead and you can do this!” There is something about their words of encouragement that offer solace to my tired mind. They help remind me that it can be done and that the feeling of sheer exhaustion will pass...eventually.
With 5 kids ages 9 and under, I feel like I haven’t even passed the 5 mile marker yet. However, despite feeling completely exhausted, I will carry on. I will carry on because it is a privilege to even be part of the race. I will carry on because I have gratitude in my heart and gratitude is one of the greatest sources of strength that we have.
So thank you to those that have come before and have done what I am currently doing. Thank you for showing me that it can be done. Thank you for reminding me, through your words of encouragement, that if I can just focus on the little wins along the way, the exhaustion will seem like a small price to pay in the end.